Let me introduce myself. I am a 21 year old "designer"
un-pursuing a career in Architecture. That would be the Architecture that relates to
building structures, as opposed to computer systems architecture. I say that because
my second self, known through my website and in chat rooms, is often misunderstood as
only doing things related to computers.
I picked up HTML with a fever. Literally. Ok, not a
fever. I had eight months of strep throat and a side effect disease like mono. That left
a lot of time on my hands, and I just took all of my years of painting, drawing, and
design and put it into HTML. Then it became a fever. So why am I a first year
Architecture graduate student? I figured out that I wasn't one at all when I could no
longer answer that question. So, after a semester and a half of torturous work, I am
walking away from it.
Deep down, I was running away from the somewhat unstable
world of web design when I went into Architecture. Despite winning a number of awards for
my personal site, serving as an assistant judge at a great web award, and consulting with
a few small businesses on their designs, I felt something was lacking in the world of web
design. Perhaps I felt I was outside that world I watched so eagerly for cues. Perhaps I
was secretly jealous of everyone who could devote their jobs/lives to web designing,
while I only got to do it after my school work was done. Or maybe it was because I had
a hard time getting anyone in the chat rooms to discuss web design as an emerging
artistically historical movement.
It's been a year since I have really stopped and looked
at the web. I have found in a year that blogs have taken over the personal site in
general. This I wouldn't mind if it weren't that so many people are limiting their
designs to fit into the blog. Of course, blog services are great, indispensable, and
marvelous. I even use them, but very few blog sites make me step back and say, "Wow,
what a fabulous design." Yet, since many blog sites have no intention of being anything
but a blog, I suppose this is fitting.
The design world still seems to be struggling with
Flash. Or perhaps it is simply that I am struggling with Flash because I still run a
dial-up off of a 56k modem. There is nothing more annoying than waiting two or three
minutes for a site to load simply for me to think, "This could have been just as good
in HTML, or DHTML." I really don't need Flash music to play over the CD I have in my
If it weren't for the large amount of work I have in
the next month before I finish out my first and last year as an Architecture grad
student, I would do something about this. But would I be heard? Where does a 21 year
old self-taught girl fit into this highly established community of web designers?
Perhaps I just need someone to reach out and say, "We see you! Come, join us! We
understand why you have to stay up into the middle of the night correcting an image
pixel by pixel until it is right!"
Where do I fit? When do I become a friend? Will I be
This is a re-introduction. I am back, if I ever was
here before. I am coming back. I have missed you all.
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